Every aspect of my life is tainted by the knowledge I'm not doing what I KNOW I should be doing! Parenting, diet, attitude, activities, my relationship with my husband, housekeeping, work, and school, all of of it is well under my own standards, but I don't ever make any effort to change it.
Why is it so hard to say this is the way I want things so this is how I will do it? Why is it that I tell myself children should not watch television as my very own kids watch their third episode of Daniel Tiger? Why do I say I am going to clean the kitchen and instead end up eat a cupcake? Why can't I seem to keep it together?
Story of my life.
ReplyDeleteThe TV watching is pretty much my only win in life. Other than the last few days (I am sick) they only watch one show in the evenings, and only if they didn't throw tantrums. And one movie on weekends. They don't know who any of the preschool show characters are because we only watch Gilligan's Island and I Love Lucy. But its my only win. In public I pretend I feed them really well, but that is just because I don't want other people to feel free to stuff them with junk. In reality they eat better than I do (not saying much LOL), but it kind of depends on how long its been since we went grocery shopping. Basically I am always feeling VERY subpar to my own standards. You are certainly not alone!
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